I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately.  That’s not actually that new.  I always do a lot of thinking.  Somehow that doesn’t always mean I come up with the best answers for my dilemas though.  Weird!

My latest thinking is about home schooling.  I am really considering doing this next year.  I have always wanted to home school.  I wanted to start with Kas in kindergarten, but with 1 and 3 yr old daughters, I didn’t think I had the time or energy.  Now, when I am on the brink of having all my kids in all day school (again), I am thinking about bringing them home all day.  Am I crazy?  This is not a rhetorical question.  Please answer me.  Am I crazy to worry about my kids education when the state I live in is bankrupt and our district is losing millions of dollars of funding next year (again)?  We just got a call last week from the district saying that every Monday in June may be a furlough day.  Am I crazy to want my children to have a well rounded life?  My son is in the 5th grade and in the advanced classes in school.  He is incredibly intelligent and I want him to have the best education, but I also want him to be a happy and healthy, well rounded child.  He spends 6 hrs a day at school and then another 3 hrs doing homework, sometimes less, but just as often more.  That leaves time for dinner and almost nothing else.  Monday night is FHE, Tuesday night is scouts, don’t forget practicing the cello in there. Where’s the time for football, skating, playing?

I have other reasons as well, but it is late.  Don’t tell me that kids don’t get socialization without public school.  That is proven to be wrong already.  The only things stopping me are completely selfish.  One, will I have time to do my own photography business?  No, probably not.  Two, will I be spending most of my time preparing for school things.  Yes, probably so.  Three, and this is just stupid.  I’m scared.  What if the school gives me a hard time when I pull them out?  I know that is a stupid concern, but I am very non-confrontational.  Real fear, what if I’m not up to the task?  On the other hand, there is so much info out there, and I am actually looking at charter schools that are funded by the state, but run online and at home.  Does that completely make my point about a bankrupt state null and void?

I have had several teachers in the last few months tell me that I missed my calling.  I should have been a teacher.  Maybe I should just be a teacher for my own kids….

On that note, I am going to bed.